1st day again~

its not like i never been home...

but its like another 1st day being there just like

where i am rite now..

in SCHOOL!!

hahahahaha...LOL!!

there a lot of things that happened before which of course

i dont know a thing bout dat but still

there are things that remain there

as there are no one are able to move it or changed it

so dat things would be better..

if they wait for me to do that...i think...i might do dat

in 10 years time..hua3~

then...school again....today is the 2nd day enrolled into this school

as a pre-practicum teacher which

i'm not supposed to teach but i can help the teachers

to teach in their classes while

observing the class management and how the senior

teacher actually control their own classroom..=)

tutu tutututu tutututuututtututututu~

not really a good day for me today...

juz doing my best for a better me instead....

is evrything dat i own rite now just like a mist in the early morning....

fading in time...disappear after giving such a comfort feeling...

but even mist will come again at the same time tomorrow and the next day as well....

well...sometimes i felt like i wanted to turn into the old me..

who believe in no one else rather than my self..

its not easy for me when it comes to hope..

for me..hope is just like we are gambling in games...

we dont really know whether it'll really came out the way we wanted to...

when we've got what we want..we are pleased..

but when its not happening like what we hope for...we tends to

looks for the mistakes from the others without knowing dat the mistakes are always

bind to us since the beginning..

sincerely...i always told people not to mark on my words...coz not only

i've disappointed people around but also myself as well..

right now...i'm looking for a goal,an ambition to hold on...

cz i already lost what i had before..

it went away like nothing is left here to stay for..

its not dat it has gone without a trace but i know..

even if it comes back...

nothing would change even for a word....

hahahaha....last but not least...i'm writing dis out of my subconscious brain..

dun blame me if u r not going to understand a few

things in here...

well then...bye~ sayounara~ papai~ salam~

Lalalala~ not in the mood into the "paper"~ (=.=")V

Exam Study Mood is missing somehow...haha...i'm not touching any of my notes or books since in the last class i think...which held about nearly two weeks a go...quite a handy action there...i wonder what would happen to me daa~

haha...tomorrow's paper is one of the "super duper death note" subject this semester and yet..i'm feeling like doing anything to get into it...just now..i went "ronda2" around campus with two of my frens...when we arrived at the ptsl..hehe....we dont stop but we make noise out of our bike..but it was not for long..around 5-10 seconds only and it was fun...haha...we make it twice...lalala~

Exam...exam.......n exam.....it also means that i'll have to go home after dis...huarghhh!! balik jela......hm....dun have any other excuse not to do that..instead,i need to do the third smester program back at home...(hm...tangguh lagi appointment ngn Mr.Neuro..xpela...ha3~)...hope i can do well and everything will be just fine when i'm home later...if not..haha....i wont be able to think it for myself too for now....aiya~ pray harder la~

for now,even an advice from the older are not clicking wif me.....well.....even they dont have a life juz like one i had right now..haha....sometimes i felt like it is a good thing...but most of the time...the -ve part of it shooted out of my head like a bullet from a hyper duper machine gun..haha...(y am i thinking about the machine gun rite now?)...=p...

anyway...for those who are doing their best in for their exams....gudlark..pray harder..and tdo bnyak2 sket..hehe...

ganbare...ganbare........ganbare ne~ tata~ =)