Here comes goodbye..~

You were once my air. Now that you're gone, but i still have to breathe.

You were once my strength. Now that you have left, yet i still need to be strong.

To the one who used to be my air and my strength, how i wish that i could tell you these:

Do not fall sick..'cause i wont be there to ease your pain.

Do not trip..'cause i wont be there to help you to stand.

Do not be sad..'cause i wont be there to cheer you up.

Do not cry..'cause i wont be there to wipe your tears.

Do not be afraid..'cause i wont be there to put your heart at rest.

And..do not worry about me..'cause from now on, i will stop worrying about you.

Do forget me..as i will stop myself from thinking of you.

Even if it's hard,even if it's killing me from within..

That is what i'm gonna do and I'm obliged to.

There will come a day

That I'll be fine as fine can be.

And on that day,I will let you see my smile..used to be yours.

It's still the same smile,

but the reason behind that smile won't be the same..

Not to show that i'm happy to see you again

but to tell you how glad i am

that i can make it to that far...by myself.

Insyaallah,with His will. I shall prove it.

Sedang Mengalami Tahap Stress Melampau-Lampau~

hm....mls nk tulis dtail...................

Hm.........

kadang2..xsemua benda akan berlaku mcm apa yg kita nak

kadang2..x semua benda akan berlaku mcm apa yg kita fkirkan

n kadang2 jgak..kita akan sedar

Manusia ni berbeza beza dgn cara yg sngat istimewa..

tapi..

x semua perbezaan itu dapat dijadikan

halwa pemanis dalam

konteks memberi dan menerima dgn baik..

kata hati x selalunya betul

apa yg perlu

istikarah dan pohonla doa utk dpatkan

ketetapan hati dari Yg Maha Pemurah dan Maha Penyayang

agak pelik kerana setiap manusia itu sedar

diri mereka adalah tidak sempurna

tetapi masing2 berlumba lumba dalam mengejar

kesempurnaan sehingga terlupa

tanggungjwb dan perkara2 yg lebih penting di dlm kehidupan masing2

ibu bapa dan keluarga..

tanggungjwb dan amanah..

dan mcm2 lg ler..

semua tu memerlukan komitmen yg lebih

untuk menjadikan kita manusia yg berhati lapang

dalam menjalankan ibadah lillahitaala..

ingatlah selalu..

untuk bahagia di dunia..

pastikan kebahgiaan kamu di akhirat nnt..

"Kejarlah kebahgiaan di akhirat di dlm hidup kamu..

Nescaya kebahgiaan di dunia akan mengejar kamu.."

ayat ini masih terngiang ngiang di dlam kepala

setelah disampaikan oleh seorang akak kepada saya..

wahahaha~

akak la sngt kn..

tapi kata2 itu sangat bermakna

dan boleh dijadikan sebagai salah satu tiang dalam

prinsip kehidupan..

pentingkan yang lebih penting..

kerana tiada yang lebih penting daripada yang lebih penting itu

sekalipun ianya penting...haha~

kalo phm..tahniah...~ ;p

sekadar mengulas dgn keadaan dua tiga hari ni..

bukanku x sudi..

aiceh...

cuma semua yg datang tu x perlu

keadaan manusia ni berbeza beza

penerimaan itu penting

tp pemberian itu juga penting

haruslah berkadar dalam memberi

jgn smpai terlebih loading barang..

nnt x muat kapasiti hati dan perasaan serta minda

untuk menimbangkan rasional

serta bnyak lagi perkara yang lebih memerlukan perhatian

hidup ni mmg diakui x selalu indah

tapi jgn lah smpai dijadikan semua tu alasan

merintih dan memohonlah pada yg sepatutnya

manusia ni x berkuasa

dan terhad..

mcm diri sndr ni..

haish...

sabor jela...haha~

Haha~ lalalaa~

Alhamdulillah..

hampir genap sminggu berada di Masjid Putra Nilai

yg berhadapan dengan kediaman pelajar UIA Nilai..

rezeki kt sini alhamdulillah

yg terbaik stakat ni..

moga2 Allah permudahkan lagi jalan lepas ni..

Isnin nt masuk ke KUIS lak..

setting2..setup2...

dok sna 5hari..wa3~

tp environment yg berbeza sbb berada dalam dewan

n bukan dlm kwsn masjid..

sepanjang kt Masjid Putra Nilai ni

Alhamdulillah dpt smyg jemaah hampir setiap waktu kcuali subuh la..

jrg2 dpt peluang mcm ni..

n dpt pulak dngar kuliah magrib tiap2 hari..

smbil2 tu ada gak program forum lepas isyak...

agak terisi la msa yg ada kt sni..

bnyak benda yg dpt dan belajar spanjang kat sni..

dpt jumpa dgn kwn lama jugak kt sni..

ntah mcm mna la mamat tu bleh muncul kt situ...

tetiba ja ada kt blakang n solat jemaah skali..

nasib la x tkejut beruk kt depan tu..

haha~

anyway...pengalaman yg baru gak msa smyg jumaat ritu

skali dapat khatib baca khutbah guna pelat nogori la plak..

adoi..

poning eden mndgornye..

tp masih dapat tangkap msg di sebalik khutbah tu..

di mana kita dalam menegakkan agama?

di mana kita dalam memperjuangkan agama?

tiada dakwah tanpa perjuangan

dan tiada perjuangan tanpa pengorbanan..

daie di jalan Allah itu bukan satu pilihan..

tapi satu kwajipan...

Ayat to take note for today:~

kita ada kudrat..

kita mampu berusaha..

"modal" bukan halangan untuk berkembang..

cuba keluar dari kotak pemikiran dan ego

utk sama2 berjaya..=)

Alkisah seekor kucing~ haha

Ni nk bgtaw cerita sal sekor kucing..

Ntah mna datangnya pon xtaw...

she found me instead of being found by me..

haha...

kucing ni tersangatla manja...

pantang duduk ja..

kompem panjat nek dok ats riba..

bagi mkn..xmo sgt pon..

dok bmanja ja keja..haha

rasanya kucing ni kena buang ngn org

sbb cara kucing ni mcm kucing yg kena bela kt umah

dok tgk tb...

dok mls2 kt bwah meja..

tido ats riba...

n bulu2 dy sgt cantik n x luruh...

huhu..

nk amek bela pon xleh..

so..bleh kwn jela yer kita wahai puan kucing..wa3

tenkiu la temankan daku di saat daku kesorangan menjaga kedai di giant itu..

hua3~

haha

Serba tak kena..

bukan mudah nk bernafas dalam jiwa hamba..

(*secebis lirik daripda lagu yg sdg dimainkan*)

mcm ni la keadaan yg terasa skrg..

sesak di dalam walaupn di luar bernafas seperti biasa

harap dipermudahkan segalanya..

Amin..

Di Atas Nama Cinta~

"Dont you "love" me?"

"Nope, I dont think so.."

"Ok then..i'm sory.."

tuttt.....tutttt........tuttttttt..................

wahaha...

dialog xley blah yg berlaku dlm tempoh 15minit

pada 1 June 2011..

[*p/s:dialog2 sblm tu xyah tulis la kot..huhu*]

erm..minta maap minta ampun kalo awk bca ni yer..huhu

its not like i mention ur name here anyway..

n minta maaf gak sbb da lpas hang up td baru terperasan

yg ayt td tu ter'amat'lah straight forward..huhu..

i'm not the old me that you know years ago...

people change..

n so did i..

i refused to let u mumble around without any black n white answer

we havent meet each other for quite a long time

but still, u r keeping that feeling inside..

n dis time, i'm leaving u behind with an answer..

dis time..its a definite answer..

i really appreciate that u still hold on to

the trust that we shared long long long time a go..

but dis is not the time...

maybe it is for u..but not me for sure...

i'm already married...

married to my life...

married to my responsibilities...

married to trust that are given upon me...

married to my family...

n i'm not ready yet to be engaged to another uncertain fate of life...

i'm hoping that you can understand that

because that i'm married to 'them'

they are real

n they need me

n i'm nothing without them

cos that is why i am the way i am right now..

there is no junction for turning back..

even the U turn signboard had been lift from my life...

i'm leaving all the things that i once owned

just to save those 'wives' that i had right now...

we were best friend..

but somehow..

we'll be just friend..

u'll have ur super friend later to replace this not so good best friend of yours..

haha..but dont worry, i wont be there if u need me..

but ur family n friends will...n Allah too..=p